What If.

There are many a book / movie / daydream based on these two little words.

Two words that - separately - hold so much meaning, they are often used on their lonesome:

"What?"

One asks to get more information, to have something repeated, or is used as an exclamation of incomprehension.

"If..."

Often is used to start the brain on a thought process of how something could be accomplished, given the right circumstances.

"What if . . ."

Almost begs the brain to imagine how the incomprehensible can be comprehensible with the right tools / mindset.

And to be honest . . .

I truly dislike the two words together. "What if . . . "

They represent what keeps me up at night.

They keep me forlorn over things that I cannot change or control.

They pick away at my sanity.

What if I had been a more confident person in my earlier years?

What if I had told someone how I truly felt about them instead of being polite and quiet?

What if I had pursued my dreams with more intensity and been unafraid to fail?

But I also love the words together. What if . . .

They represent what keeps me creative.

They make me a dreamer.

They fuel my motivation.

What if I continue to work hard and create new ideas for my profession?

What if I save up enough money to buy that "unattainable" house / townhouse?

What if I take a year and work abroad like I always wanted?

I am working hard to live and let go of my retrospective "what ifs".

They do me no good.

They keep me from growing. Stagnant. Still. Dull.

...it has taken a while for me to realize that.

I hope in this new year I can focus more on the future and my dreams for the future.

After all, I think everyone should live with their "what ifs", as long as it moves you forward.

Here's to moving forward, 2019.

skål xx